Dear Janolytes,

*deep breath*

Hey.

This is kinda odd.

But Jano Why?

Because I haven’t posted anything in damn near 3 years. Yea 2022 was a time, an existential evoking time. FUCK.

So much to the point where I logged off like Kriz Kaliko.There is peace in not knowing wtf is going on with anyone. It is. The only thing I checked was Twitter for Hilarity and tumblR was random interest. In retrospect I needed it, but as a result I’ve lost my voice. Now I’m hesitant to stick my foot in the ocean. I think this will be the issue when I walk on the shore before I jump in.
*rubs face while saying shit.
Honestly at some point I had drafted a whole different issue, but re reading it I’m not in that head space any more and alot has happened since when I initially wrote it.
So where do I start.

Well the concept of death and time will choke you while it strokes you with no lube. Spoiler Alert.
I tried to enjoy time with my friends and family because of the above sentence. I went on alot of Side quests, some of which I got pictures of. I ran into people i never thought I’d see again. Met a whole new cast. I finally got my chest tattooed, and my nose pierced. I had a bearded dragon who was the sweetest scaley bum, but he passed away in a horrific bloody death. Cotton field 11 ended like my spider sense projected, now I’m at cotton field 12 where I contemplate how did I get here and when will I leave since I’m not getting shutting down vibes. (Fuck this job) I threw my first art show. I finished my comic book.

Right!!! Finally!!!

Got some shoots done that were a challenge creatively, but turned out amazingly. Still have some that i want to do. Went to my 1st rave while seeking new raves. Tried some new hair styles. Made a choice to believe in myself as much as i do these groups that somehow lead to a dead end as I have many existential episodes . Realized that their should be a study of how niggas transform into duplicitous nigga niggas (Shit is fucking wild). So many concerts. So many (See list below)

Tyler the Creator, Kali Uchis, Halsey, Snoh Aalegra, H.E.R, Ravyn Lanae, Rina Samayama, Masego, Ella Mai, Nova Twins, Janet Jackson, Paramore, Gym class heroes, Issiah Rashad, Childish Gambino, Rapsody, Jhene Aiko, Gary Clark Jr.

Decided to pursue my creative therapy dreams in my own way. Started doing Yoga. Played Disc Golf. Went to Blerd con. Started a new Art project. Tried Mushrooms. Trying to keep my plants alive while learning and recycling soil from those didn’t make it. Learned how much I can disassociate. Learned that I don’t have it in me to argue with people, bruh I promise I have no fucks but I have gum like CoCo from Dear white people. Learned that when you feel the vibes shift an arc is about to end. You can leave willingly or life will force you out that will evoke emotions that I’m not a fan of.

Please don’t piss me off,I legally can’t murder you so it doesn’t serve me.

“I don’t speak on it anymore, I just Meditate.” ~ Rapsody

Learned if you don’t slow the fuck down, life will take a sledge hammer to your knees. Learned Hedonism is a must in this rancid world because that life path perfection isn’t real so celebrate the wins you can get. Learned everyone’s journey is different, however saying that doesn’t pacify you when you feel like you haven’t gone anywhere compared to others.

None of this is in chronological order by the way.

*stops in the sand and glances in the ocean.

So yeah that is where I’ve been, roughly. At this point in my life I just want balance. Balance between my art projects, friends and family, video games, reading.  College level simplicity and fun. If i can avoid crashing out while on my path to being an Art idol that would be great. I just want a certain level of whelm in my life,no over whelming is desired.

Do I really want to get back online? Its a mix.
As I said there is peace in being offline, absolute peace. But also I have to promote myself as an artist, plus I really miss talking shit. OMFG. Its hard.

So hard.
But here we are. Me standing at the edge of the ocean self reflecting over the past few years and wondering where am I going on this JRPG.

*deep breath and steps back into the water.

So what does that mean for this website? I use to try to adhere to a monthly schedule…..but fuck all that.
Now it will be whenever I feel like it. Realistically it’ll probably be every other month.
But Jano why?
Simple, despite me being gone for the past 3 years I don’t have alot of issues ready to publish. It’s been more of the same people say they want to do something, I say ok koolio, and what follows is crickets. My spider sense is pretty accurate when I feel that nothing will happen. And at this point I don’t have it in me head to chase anyone down, less than I did in previous years. People know what they want, or have whole lives that take priority over working with me. I made peace with that. Long gone are the days of me counting on someone’s money, I’ll count it when it actually hits my account.

Jano that is kinda bleek.

It is what it is bro. I made peace with alot of things. My toxic trait is that I’m not letting these niggas stress me out and I will water my spiritual garden.

“I’m on my give grace, get peace, zen shit” ~ Kota the Friend.

Side note, I’m not giving grace. Niggas can go suffer. Thats where I am at emotionally.

Remember also I have a whole comic series that I just finished.
YEET.
YEP AZURE ASCENDANCE IS FINALLY FUCKING DONE NIGGAS!!!! HOLY FUCK. The day I colored that last page a year ago I clapped like I never clapped, SCREMT like I never SCREMT. Draxus looked so concerned.
Nigga did you say SCREMT?
Yes nigga SCREMT!!!!
But there are 15 issues left of my 20 issue series, so between that and my photoshoots I may end up posting more issues than I initially said. I haven’t’ figured it out yet.
Eh.

Back to doing shows and trying to get my books in stores since the 1’s that existed have unfortunately shut down. You realize what you are capable of when you have time to reflect about your life. Bitch I am a whole Feature, you should appreciate your good fortune if I even acknowledge you.

“I AM THE HYPE”  ~ Team Four star Vegeta

The stark contrast is that you don’t even exist to me.

“You’re dead to me.” ~ Kali Uchis
” You don’t even exist to me!” ~ Nancy from the Craft
“Bitch, I cut my granny off if she don’t see it how I see it” ~ Kendrick Lamar

Any of the these quote falls would suffice to summarize the above statement.

Moral of the story, I lost my mind and with that I had to  find myself.

Mostly.

Or something like that.

Success will look different for me compared to everyone else, but I won’t know if I don’t leave this island I’ve been on for the past few years.

So while I continue dive walk back to the ocean here is a preview of what I did in seclusion.

“Let me talk my shit, oh, I’m on fire” ~ Flo Mili

Damn I’m typed more than I planned.

Eh, As if.

Anyway here is a preview of whats to come.Have fun JanoLytes.